Happy Halloween! (A few days late for some of you readers no doubt!)
Clearly I have been slacking on the blog writing but it's hard when there are some things you don't want people to read about as they are happening and life in general happens. Blog writing takes a bit of time (unless you want to make zero sense and have typos galore which I'm sure I still do). Some of the lack of time has come from a little promotion at work! It's exciting and I like what I'm doing much more than what I had been doing before. It also comes with a little working late which is good and bad. I have the time to do it but do I really want to be at work? Ehhh.. But when you like what you are doing, it's less terrible than it sounds! Not hating your job is half the battle!
Reading has really been slacking. Since it's getting cold though and all I want to do is hibernate with my sweat pants and a blanket, I'm sure I will be reading again soon. I can however tell you that Netflix might be the best $8 I spend a month. They might not have the most up to date stuff but the app is on my kindle, I can watch it through the wii at my apartment and my brother watches it at home on his Xbox. Pretty much a success. I already loved Vampire Diaries and Hart of Dixie (which I watched every episode of before the new seasons started this month), but my new love is Friday Night Lights. How did I not watch it when it was actually on? I couldn't sit down and watch 1 or 2 episodes at a time. I had to watch like 4 or spend a whole Saturday on the couch watching like a whole season. Addiction. Watch it if you haven't. Ladies, I have a new found respect for football pants and any scene shot in a weight room.
Ok, back to the whole reason I started this blog... being a single girl. Seriously sometimes I feel like such a b*tch. Everyone can tell you not to feel that way, but it happens and here is why: I really don't think it's possible for a guy and girl to be friends. I think if I ever saw a relationship where a guy and girl were just friends and no one EVER had feelings for the other, it would be like seeing a unicorn and then when you took a picture of that unicorn to show to your family and friends, it would be like a ghost and not show up in the photo. Feelings complicate everything. Especially when you don't have the same ones. You're going along having a good time and bam! Pump the breaks! Stuff gets strange and there are awkward conversations that have to happen and you want to die. Well maybe not die, but hide under a rock at least. Why is it such a terrible feeling to not have the same feelings as someone else?! It's not like anyone did anything wrong to have or not have the same feelings, yet it totally feels like it. Frustration. And at some point this should be easy to stop but it's like a train wreck. You can't look away and you can't stop it. Warning signs ladies: hugs that last a little too long, excessive touching (arm, leg, lower back), and him actually texting you first. If you aren't interested, nix it or be honest about your feelings before it goes on too long and you feel like a jerk and a half!
Now, how you know you don't have that feeling... You can try and convince yourself it could maybe work out and he is super nice and everything you should want to date, but if that feeling isn't there, it's not going to be there. This is something I apparently have a hard time remembering. And that is a very important point! What you should want and what you really want are usually 2 totally different things. The terrible thing is once you've felt the "spark" it's hard to convince yourself that it exists when it doesn't. Everyone says once you've met someone "You will know". And I really believe that. I think you have that feeling with every important relationship you will have. That person may not end up being "the one" but they sure do end up being important. With every serious relationship I've had (and I know there are only a couple of them), I was so excited to see him. Butterflies, that electric feeling when you sit next to them, and instantly being attracted to them. None of those things have happened in a long time.. I'm talking YEARS. That's an issue. Countless dates, a few month long "hang outs" here and there and nada. How many people can you really have that kind of connection with?! Is there some kind of general rule where it only comes along every so many years?! I know there is some grand plan I know nothing about and everything happens when it is supposed to. But I want the spark back! :)
P.S. Spark makes me think of T. Swift (Sparks Fly). Her new cd is A.M.A.Z.I.N.G. So is Jason Aldean's for that matter. Go get them both!
