Remember way back when.. when I had a blog and actually used it to fill everyone in on the absolute horrors of dating? Yea me too. And I've seriously been slacking. Its not like dating over the last 5 years has gotten any better. One shit ass waste of a 3 month relationship and too many not really relationships but we might as well act like it situations and I'm over it.
Since when is it ok for guys to start out any potential relationship by being dishonest from the beginning? It is their fault for doing it, or my own for actually believing people when they say things? When you say that you don't want to date just to date and actually have a relationship, why would a girl be wrong to believe that? So you haven't earned trust completely, but who wants to go into every relationship not believing someone when they say things to you? We aren't 20 yr old kids just dating around and trying to get laid, are we? You wouldn't expect that at almost 30 but holy cow do I know how to pick em. And then to put your own feelings aside because you don't want to be that girl who is needy, or is pushy about being together when the entire time, the other person didn't want the same things as you anyway. What a waste of my weekends and my time (I'm getting my MBA now and couldn't be any more annoyed at what a waste of valuable study time I lost) spent hanging out with your friends and your family when you had zero intention of it going anywhere but your bedroom- and your laundry room- because let's be real, no one could deal with that mess and I'm too OCD and helpful for my own good.
Would our fathers have ever treated our mothers this way? How would guys feel if whoever their sister was dating treated her this way? I'm sure punches would be thrown. The lies or fibs we tell? The constant need to watch porn or message way too many girls just because they can, looking for some validation that no one can give because they just aren't ready for a relationship but, would rather take down an innocent bystander just because they got so close. Just because you introduce someone to your family and friends as your "not girlfriend", doesn't make you any less of a fuckboy.
Monday, November 7, 2016
Tuesday, February 4, 2014
No Room for You: My Friend Zone is Already Full
So remember that one time when I had a blog and actually used it? Yea, apparently I forgot all about it. But when you find your job posted on Craigslist, get canned, moved back home with the parentals, start TWO new jobs (because the first one was full of crazies), and decide to get off your ever growing ass, you get busy. But now that you're all caught up on my life since August...
I've had two dates since I moved home. TWO. In 5 months. Oye, I need to get out more. One was the usual dinner, drinks, movie date. Fun. But apparently lead to no where. Cool. Whatever, yo. On to the next. The second was the sit at a bar, he drinks more beer than I have in like a month, and I run away. Next. Except there has been no next. The more I even attempt to date the more I feel like I am stuck in the wrong era for dating. No, we can't just "hang out". It's called dating. Call it what it is. No, I'm not just going to hoe around and have fun until something real comes along. If you aren't something real or want to actually see if this can go anywhere, move on. I'm pretty sure the amount of respect girls have for themselves is about as low as ever. Girls that don't respect themselves sure as heck can bet a guy won't respect them either. If that makes me the boring, good girl, then so be it. I'd rather be the boring, good girl than one day have to explain to Mr. Right that I've actually slept with the whole town and he's going where most men have before. Eww.
Now in this 5 months, I've been friend-zoned probably more than once. How does that even happen? I guess karma is a bitch and I have friend-zoned way too many guys because the second you tell someone how you actually feel, bam, they don't feel the same. That stings a little. But, I don't want to be the friend you come to when every stupid hoe you date ends up screwing you over. I don't want to be the girl you cuddle up on the couch with but we never actually do anything else. I'm sure as heck over being the girl who bites her tongue all the time because she's afraid of what the end result will be if she says something. You never know how much time you have with someone. How do you not tell them how you feel? If it doesn't come out right or with the result you want, at least you know. At least they know someone cares.
Props to my best girl friends who are always there to say "He doesn't know a good thing when it's sitting right in front of him". I now know what it's like to be the "nice guy". If I've learned anything over the last few years of singledom, its not about relying on some guy to make you happy. It's about learning how to make yourself happy. And spending time with your friends, getting way too drunk and shaking your booty on the dance floor until 2am. If there's every a time to find your bridesmaids, it's when you are single as ever. Those are the girls who have heard every annoying story about every ex, every stupid date, and every "friend". And then still assure you that you aren't the crazy one, it's every guy who could ever let you go or not give you a chance. They are there to tell you after some mild Instagram creeping on someone's ex that even though that gross ex of his wore the same dress as you on NYE, that doesn't make you a dirty, slut too. They are also there to tell you that Keith Urban didn't write "Stupid Boy" because boys are smart. :) Mr. Right or even Mr. Right Now may be a mystery to me, but over the last 6 months or so, I've figured out that after removing a few select losers, I have surrounded myself with some pretty amazing people.
I've had two dates since I moved home. TWO. In 5 months. Oye, I need to get out more. One was the usual dinner, drinks, movie date. Fun. But apparently lead to no where. Cool. Whatever, yo. On to the next. The second was the sit at a bar, he drinks more beer than I have in like a month, and I run away. Next. Except there has been no next. The more I even attempt to date the more I feel like I am stuck in the wrong era for dating. No, we can't just "hang out". It's called dating. Call it what it is. No, I'm not just going to hoe around and have fun until something real comes along. If you aren't something real or want to actually see if this can go anywhere, move on. I'm pretty sure the amount of respect girls have for themselves is about as low as ever. Girls that don't respect themselves sure as heck can bet a guy won't respect them either. If that makes me the boring, good girl, then so be it. I'd rather be the boring, good girl than one day have to explain to Mr. Right that I've actually slept with the whole town and he's going where most men have before. Eww.
Now in this 5 months, I've been friend-zoned probably more than once. How does that even happen? I guess karma is a bitch and I have friend-zoned way too many guys because the second you tell someone how you actually feel, bam, they don't feel the same. That stings a little. But, I don't want to be the friend you come to when every stupid hoe you date ends up screwing you over. I don't want to be the girl you cuddle up on the couch with but we never actually do anything else. I'm sure as heck over being the girl who bites her tongue all the time because she's afraid of what the end result will be if she says something. You never know how much time you have with someone. How do you not tell them how you feel? If it doesn't come out right or with the result you want, at least you know. At least they know someone cares.
Props to my best girl friends who are always there to say "He doesn't know a good thing when it's sitting right in front of him". I now know what it's like to be the "nice guy". If I've learned anything over the last few years of singledom, its not about relying on some guy to make you happy. It's about learning how to make yourself happy. And spending time with your friends, getting way too drunk and shaking your booty on the dance floor until 2am. If there's every a time to find your bridesmaids, it's when you are single as ever. Those are the girls who have heard every annoying story about every ex, every stupid date, and every "friend". And then still assure you that you aren't the crazy one, it's every guy who could ever let you go or not give you a chance. They are there to tell you after some mild Instagram creeping on someone's ex that even though that gross ex of his wore the same dress as you on NYE, that doesn't make you a dirty, slut too. They are also there to tell you that Keith Urban didn't write "Stupid Boy" because boys are smart. :) Mr. Right or even Mr. Right Now may be a mystery to me, but over the last 6 months or so, I've figured out that after removing a few select losers, I have surrounded myself with some pretty amazing people.
Monday, March 18, 2013
Just Call Me Wheezy.. Wheezy McWheezypants
Less slacking, more blogging. That's what I'm going for, so let's hope I can keep this up! But it's really hard when you haven't been on a date in months! That's what this blog was supposed to be about right? Not happening. My standards are apparently a little high. And it's hard to meet people outside of the regular circle of people I know which clearly isn't working. This is about my Adventures in the City. Well adventures don't include just dating! So on to more exciting things..
Like Supercross this weekend! So much fun and I met the love of my life, Ryan Dungey. I'm pretty sure I had quite an impact on him and he probably woke up this morning thinking about me! ;) He's so cute! Totally one of the guys who is always on my Top 5 list (you know, the 5 people you can cheat on a significant other with and it's totally acceptable)! In case any of you were curious about how my love did this weekend, he got 2nd. Lost to the leprechaun which seems fitting since it was St. Patrick's day weekend. Most of you know, I'm not a fan of the idea of reproducing. The whole thing sounds terribly painful and you lose your body forever (let alone what it does to your lady parts). Call me selfish, whatever. BUT, the kids who were like 5 yrs old and came to race this weekend were awesome! I could totally adopt the next Ricky Carmichael and be a moto mom. Maci from Teen Mom already has her kid sponsored! And he's like 3.
Like Supercross this weekend! So much fun and I met the love of my life, Ryan Dungey. I'm pretty sure I had quite an impact on him and he probably woke up this morning thinking about me! ;) He's so cute! Totally one of the guys who is always on my Top 5 list (you know, the 5 people you can cheat on a significant other with and it's totally acceptable)! In case any of you were curious about how my love did this weekend, he got 2nd. Lost to the leprechaun which seems fitting since it was St. Patrick's day weekend. Most of you know, I'm not a fan of the idea of reproducing. The whole thing sounds terribly painful and you lose your body forever (let alone what it does to your lady parts). Call me selfish, whatever. BUT, the kids who were like 5 yrs old and came to race this weekend were awesome! I could totally adopt the next Ricky Carmichael and be a moto mom. Maci from Teen Mom already has her kid sponsored! And he's like 3.
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| Looks like an Engagement picture to me! Will and Kate have nothing on that! |
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| Ok, those kids are kinda cute. But only because I never saw their dirty diapers or puke. |
More exciting news which most of you know about I'm sure.. I have decided to save every penny I have and buy a house! Hopefully by the end of the year if I can really limit the amount of fun and expensive things I do! The best part is that buying alone, I don't have to compromise with someone about where WE should live and how big of a yard WE should have. But until then, SAVE SAVE SAVE! Even taking on a 2nd job to get this done a little faster! I can't take being in an apartment anymore! The noisy neighbors, the crappy parking, the noisy neighbors.. Over it! Also done throwing thousands of dollars out the window every year on rent and getting nothing out of it. If any of you have any tips on how to save lots of money and fast, I'm down to learn something new! I can't even decide on where I want to live so I definitely have time to figure things out.
Learning to like running is hard. I hate to work out. I hate to run. All you people that live in the gym and act like it's the best thing you have ever done are crazy. I run for a minute and I need an inhaler. Literally. I'm like Wheezy McWheezypants over here. It's ridiculous. If anyone wants to come run with me and be my motivation, I am down. You can also make sure I don't pass out. It amazes me how you can be a smaller person and be in the worst shape. Gotta get on this! 5k in May and I'm not ready! Also, for those of you who love 5ks or whatever, I saw the funnest 5k ever and actually want to do it! In October there is a 5k electric run at the fairgrounds. Google it! It looks like an awesome time. I'm totally doing it. :)
That's all for now, so have a fabulous week everyone!
Tuesday, March 5, 2013
Hey Sexy Lady
Hello all! Clearly I have been slacking on the blog writing. Maybe it's the winter blues, maybe it's laziness. Whatever the case, I thought it was time to share some thoughts and hopefully make people laugh. Life really hasn't been that exciting and there isn't much to report but here it goes..
Usually I tell you about something great to read. Well, surprise surprise, this go around I've got nothing to report. Seriously I don't know what I do in the winter other than basically hibernate. Sleep and eat, I guess? But the lack of activity leads me to my first bit of news. In case you didn't know, I signed up for a 5k! Yes, this is the most ridiculous thing I have ever signed up for and it's all because of peer pressure! No, I don't run. I always tell people that if I'm running, you should be running too because that means I'm being chased by something. But here I am. Signed up for a 5k. I haven't ran a mile since high school during tennis so why not sign up to run 3?! I may have lost my mind. I'm all "Yea I'm going to go work out at the apartment complex gym.". Uh huh.. Right after I eat this bag of cheese popcorn. I need a trainer to come kick my behind or tell me I'm fat or something. On May 12th, the day after this "fun run", I doubt I will think it's much fun. I should probably just go ahead and schedule the massage that I know I will need. This whole decision to work out and get that bikini body before summer also led to me thinking I probably shouldn't eat a whole box of Cheez-Its at once and start eating a little better. First, I cut out Coke.. for 3 days. How people can go cold turkey I will never know. Worst caffeine headache of my life. So I had a coke. I decided to buy healthy snacks like trail mix and fruit snacks. Stupid. I'm still hungry! So here I sit, with a bag of ranch pretzels and a water which will soon be replaced by a Coke.
Here's another less than exciting topic too: Boys. Seriously I don't remember dating ever being so complicated. Sure let's go out once, I'm going to blow you off for a 2nd date, you text like a year later saying we should get together, you blow me off and then text like 2 weeks after that blaming work. Really? Does that seem like it's going anywhere to you sir, because if you think any date we may or may not ever have will end with you testing out my new bed, you are wrong. Also if we are spending time together 2-3 nights per week, can go out to dinner and other relationshippy things, it's probably a relationship even though there's no title. When I pull the plug on that, don't act all offended because I want a real relationship- you know, the kind where you double date with friends and if people ask if you have a boyfriend, you can say "yes". I thought dating in college was bad since it seemed like every guy only wanted one thing and everyone had dorm rooms in which to do that one thing. But after college is so much worse! The guys that are still single are single for a reason. I guess maybe the same can be said for girls, but I'm refusing to look at that side of the debate. Morals and independence.. Enough to scare any boy away.
In case you all were completely unaware, I'm a tad bit into motocross. Well in 11 days, Supercross will be in Indy. I was so bummed to miss it last year even though I was on a girls trip to Tennessee! Since the motorcycle place here in Westfield just added KTM to their lineup, that means my favorite rider will be here Friday night for a signing! I'm pretty sure Ryan Dungey will see me, it will be love at first sight and we will live happily ever after taking our little boys to motocross races. I could totally pull off being the motomom.
Now on to a subject that makes me a little sad. No longer do I sit at my desk and hear "Hey sexy lady" sung by the sweetest voice in the office. I don't hear sing alongs with Celine or the words "Even if you call everyday, your money won't get here any faster.". One of my favoritest coworkers and cube space buddies has left us to go be a pilot in the Air Force. I miss her beautiful face which I hear is no longer allowed to be covered by makeup and she has even learned to do her own laundry! :) Her replacement is fitting in just great but apparently singing wasn't part of the interview process. Fingers crossed that all of the worker bees here in the office can take a trip to her graduation from OTS! Miss you Joni! :)
Usually I tell you about something great to read. Well, surprise surprise, this go around I've got nothing to report. Seriously I don't know what I do in the winter other than basically hibernate. Sleep and eat, I guess? But the lack of activity leads me to my first bit of news. In case you didn't know, I signed up for a 5k! Yes, this is the most ridiculous thing I have ever signed up for and it's all because of peer pressure! No, I don't run. I always tell people that if I'm running, you should be running too because that means I'm being chased by something. But here I am. Signed up for a 5k. I haven't ran a mile since high school during tennis so why not sign up to run 3?! I may have lost my mind. I'm all "Yea I'm going to go work out at the apartment complex gym.". Uh huh.. Right after I eat this bag of cheese popcorn. I need a trainer to come kick my behind or tell me I'm fat or something. On May 12th, the day after this "fun run", I doubt I will think it's much fun. I should probably just go ahead and schedule the massage that I know I will need. This whole decision to work out and get that bikini body before summer also led to me thinking I probably shouldn't eat a whole box of Cheez-Its at once and start eating a little better. First, I cut out Coke.. for 3 days. How people can go cold turkey I will never know. Worst caffeine headache of my life. So I had a coke. I decided to buy healthy snacks like trail mix and fruit snacks. Stupid. I'm still hungry! So here I sit, with a bag of ranch pretzels and a water which will soon be replaced by a Coke.
Here's another less than exciting topic too: Boys. Seriously I don't remember dating ever being so complicated. Sure let's go out once, I'm going to blow you off for a 2nd date, you text like a year later saying we should get together, you blow me off and then text like 2 weeks after that blaming work. Really? Does that seem like it's going anywhere to you sir, because if you think any date we may or may not ever have will end with you testing out my new bed, you are wrong. Also if we are spending time together 2-3 nights per week, can go out to dinner and other relationshippy things, it's probably a relationship even though there's no title. When I pull the plug on that, don't act all offended because I want a real relationship- you know, the kind where you double date with friends and if people ask if you have a boyfriend, you can say "yes". I thought dating in college was bad since it seemed like every guy only wanted one thing and everyone had dorm rooms in which to do that one thing. But after college is so much worse! The guys that are still single are single for a reason. I guess maybe the same can be said for girls, but I'm refusing to look at that side of the debate. Morals and independence.. Enough to scare any boy away.
In case you all were completely unaware, I'm a tad bit into motocross. Well in 11 days, Supercross will be in Indy. I was so bummed to miss it last year even though I was on a girls trip to Tennessee! Since the motorcycle place here in Westfield just added KTM to their lineup, that means my favorite rider will be here Friday night for a signing! I'm pretty sure Ryan Dungey will see me, it will be love at first sight and we will live happily ever after taking our little boys to motocross races. I could totally pull off being the motomom.
Now on to a subject that makes me a little sad. No longer do I sit at my desk and hear "Hey sexy lady" sung by the sweetest voice in the office. I don't hear sing alongs with Celine or the words "Even if you call everyday, your money won't get here any faster.". One of my favoritest coworkers and cube space buddies has left us to go be a pilot in the Air Force. I miss her beautiful face which I hear is no longer allowed to be covered by makeup and she has even learned to do her own laundry! :) Her replacement is fitting in just great but apparently singing wasn't part of the interview process. Fingers crossed that all of the worker bees here in the office can take a trip to her graduation from OTS! Miss you Joni! :)
Tuesday, December 18, 2012
Liquor then beer, in the clear... Lies!
Well it's been a good month since I've posted a new blog, so here we go! I know I'm seriously slacking...
For those of you who like a good read or may have actually read Love Unscripted about the hot movie star who falls in love with the small town bar owner, there is a part 2! Love Unrehearsed was awesome. Very good follow up to the first book and still a page turner.. Read them both if you haven't. I haven't searched for any other good reads lately, so I figured I might as well read 50 Shades again.. And it's just as good the 3rd time. :) If Ian Somerhalder isn't Christian Grey when the movie comes out, I may cry.
As you may have noticed, my family adopted a little elf named Bernard! He's pretty entertaining. If anyone has any fun suggestions for him, I will gladly use them. It gets kind of hard to come up with new pictures for him daily. Another reason I am seriously slacking in pictures too.
Ok.. On to more exciting things.. Like the work Christmas party! Finding a date for this stinking thing was ridiculous. Everyone in the office is in a relationship but me. And I mean EVERYONE! No exaggeration! So I asked a boy from some earlier blog posts if he was interested in going. He says sure. Seemed like a plan. Then I get a text talking about getting drunk and making "bad decisions". Listen here sir, you didn't have to throw that out there. We all know what kind of shenanigans happen when guys and girls get drunk together. Had this boy and I previously made some "bad decisions"? Perhaps. Were the bad decisions in the past fun enough to repeat? Nah... But still you don't just say that! If it happens, it happens, but way to put pressure on it! Ugh. Not happening sir. The text from him was followed up by an "actually another girl in the office is going alone too so you don't have to go text". Bam! Don't be a douche or you don't have a chance, ass..
So I go buy new shiny black pants and a fun pink shirt and off to the party I go with another girl in the office and her boyfriend. For our parties, we are always lucky enough to have a bartender at whichever house the party is at. And wow can we drink! After some mingling, dinner and drinking it was out to the party bus! Yes, we get a party bus to go out to the bars. Be jealous. :) Then we went to Broad Ripple. We started at Red Room. Now I've never been there but the DJ was terrible and when we requested fun songs since there were all of 25 people in the bar, he ignores us. Whatever. One drink there and we were out! But not before someone decided to walk across the bar.. on their hands.. Yes, we were those people. And whoever decided to put stairs going down out of a bar was an idiot. Next up, Brothers! At this point, most of us are prettty drunk. Put a pitcher of beer in front of us with no cups, we drink from the pitcher. While there, several people took it upon themselves to look for a boy for me. We came up empty handed but it was fun watching the boss's try and find me a date! Several rounds and shots later, someone puked on the table... and no one noticed! And someone else disappeared. It's a miracle we all showed up to work on Monday. There was some pole dancing on the bus on the way home and the worst hangover ever the next day. Was your work Christmas party better than that? Doubt it. :)
Next up, New Years! I'm taking applications for a date for that as I have an extra ticket to the NYE party downtown! Maybe this go around I will actually find a date! Otherwise, whatever.. I'm pretty fun all on my own. Plus who knows who I could meet there ;)
For those of you who like a good read or may have actually read Love Unscripted about the hot movie star who falls in love with the small town bar owner, there is a part 2! Love Unrehearsed was awesome. Very good follow up to the first book and still a page turner.. Read them both if you haven't. I haven't searched for any other good reads lately, so I figured I might as well read 50 Shades again.. And it's just as good the 3rd time. :) If Ian Somerhalder isn't Christian Grey when the movie comes out, I may cry.
As you may have noticed, my family adopted a little elf named Bernard! He's pretty entertaining. If anyone has any fun suggestions for him, I will gladly use them. It gets kind of hard to come up with new pictures for him daily. Another reason I am seriously slacking in pictures too.
Ok.. On to more exciting things.. Like the work Christmas party! Finding a date for this stinking thing was ridiculous. Everyone in the office is in a relationship but me. And I mean EVERYONE! No exaggeration! So I asked a boy from some earlier blog posts if he was interested in going. He says sure. Seemed like a plan. Then I get a text talking about getting drunk and making "bad decisions". Listen here sir, you didn't have to throw that out there. We all know what kind of shenanigans happen when guys and girls get drunk together. Had this boy and I previously made some "bad decisions"? Perhaps. Were the bad decisions in the past fun enough to repeat? Nah... But still you don't just say that! If it happens, it happens, but way to put pressure on it! Ugh. Not happening sir. The text from him was followed up by an "actually another girl in the office is going alone too so you don't have to go text". Bam! Don't be a douche or you don't have a chance, ass..
So I go buy new shiny black pants and a fun pink shirt and off to the party I go with another girl in the office and her boyfriend. For our parties, we are always lucky enough to have a bartender at whichever house the party is at. And wow can we drink! After some mingling, dinner and drinking it was out to the party bus! Yes, we get a party bus to go out to the bars. Be jealous. :) Then we went to Broad Ripple. We started at Red Room. Now I've never been there but the DJ was terrible and when we requested fun songs since there were all of 25 people in the bar, he ignores us. Whatever. One drink there and we were out! But not before someone decided to walk across the bar.. on their hands.. Yes, we were those people. And whoever decided to put stairs going down out of a bar was an idiot. Next up, Brothers! At this point, most of us are prettty drunk. Put a pitcher of beer in front of us with no cups, we drink from the pitcher. While there, several people took it upon themselves to look for a boy for me. We came up empty handed but it was fun watching the boss's try and find me a date! Several rounds and shots later, someone puked on the table... and no one noticed! And someone else disappeared. It's a miracle we all showed up to work on Monday. There was some pole dancing on the bus on the way home and the worst hangover ever the next day. Was your work Christmas party better than that? Doubt it. :)
Next up, New Years! I'm taking applications for a date for that as I have an extra ticket to the NYE party downtown! Maybe this go around I will actually find a date! Otherwise, whatever.. I'm pretty fun all on my own. Plus who knows who I could meet there ;)
Monday, November 5, 2012
I Could Not Ask For More!
Well this might be the most nontraditional blog post I do.. Since everyone has decided to fill up my newsfeed with their "Days of Thanks", I figured this would be the easiest thing to do. Time to just list everything and be done with it. Plus it makes you think if you do it all at once and you can't cheat and use the same thing twice! I'm sure someone will get away with being thankful for their family on Day 1 and Day 22! ;) Not that being thankful for family twice is a bad thing. Plus I'm sure there are some single girl things in here somewhere!
I am thankful for....
1. My family! They are crazy for sure but we are more functional than most families and a little more dysfunctional than those picture perfect ones. Mom and I talk everyday and dad and I still hang out together when I'm home even if it's just hanging out in the garage while he changes my oil. Bub and I have a surprisingly good relationship. And I think sis and I have actually come a long way. :) I am one lucky girl.
2. Having a job! With this terrible economy, a lot of people have trouble finding jobs. Let alone a job that actually uses their degree. I get to do that and got a little promotion. I may complain about work some days but I know I'm lucky to get up and have one to go to.
3. My education! No matter how much I wish Sallie Mae and all her minions didn't exist, I have a degree. I loved school and always miss the sleeping in until noon :) People who say high school is the best years of your life are crazy and didn't get the opportunity to go to college because that's where it's at!
4. My car! When my old car decided to start falling apart a little at a time, I panicked about how the heck I was going to afford a new one. But thanks to my strategic bill planning and budgeting, I didn't have to settle for the worst thing on the lot. I got an SUV with 4wd! It might be a soccer mom car (or moto mom in training as I like to call it) and not brand new, but I love it. It gets me from A to B and has heat, ac and windows that work. That was quite the upgrade!
5. My friends! I have some amazing friends. Hands down the greatest! When you grow up you realize how important it is to keep the people around who don't cause drama and lift you up instead of bringing you down (unless you need to be brought back to reality). Girls night dinners, midnight Twilight showings or lunch dates, I am surrounded by some pretty awesome women.
6. My apartment! I love it (minus the price some days) but I have my own apartment. No roommate, mom and dad don't pay for it, and I can even afford cable and internet without having to steal it off the neighbors. :) Other than wanting to upgrade the furniture, I like all my decorations and the fact that it feels home-y. Mom and dad's will always be home, but my apartment is my mess, my decorations and has my remote- which I don't have to share.
7. Mine (and my family's) health! Working in personal injury, you see how fast someone's life can change and it's never good. Car accidents, injuries at work and surgery that goes bad are all I see everyday and it makes you grateful that it hasn't happened to you or someone you love. One back injury at work and you hear about someone losing their home since they live paycheck to paycheck and aren't getting a full one while injured. One doctor's mistake and your family is suddenly without you. Being surrounded by that makes you realize how lucky you are.
8. Access to healthcare! Kind of goes along with #7, but if there's ever an issue, dad has amazing insurance which I have used and abused this year since I get kicked off at 26. When I have to sign up for work's plan, it might not be great but it is still offered. I just want to get as healthy as possible before I get kicked off! Hence the annoying allergy testing and shots..
9. Where I live! I love where I decided to move and can't ever see myself moving back to the cornfields. They are nice to visit but there's no way I could deal with a 20 minute drive just to Walmart or 45 minute drive to get to work. No thanks! Fishers is amazing. There is always something going on, great schools, and yes, its a little uppity. I'm not afraid to live here alone and I'm pretty sure I could leave my car unlocked for weeks and no one would steal my Jason Aldean cd out of it. :) Plus it probably helps that a police car parks in the carport right under my stairs..
10. My family's financial well being! Nope, we aren't millionaires.. Not even close. But my parent's have done pretty well for themselves. My brother, sister and I are basically spoiled- and now we are all over 18. Growing up, I've been to Disney World 5 times, was never told no for any school thing I wanted money for and got a car at 16. Now I'm old and Sallie Mae beckons so I'm still spoiled because I don't pay Verizon for my phone or State Farm for my car insurance. When my car needed new rotors, I didn't pay for them. Yes, I'm spoiled for sure. But I know I am lucky that my parents can do this.
11. Never going hungry! My parents house was always full of food. Grandma spends twice the amount on food as I do and she lives alone too. If you open my freezer right now, something unhealthy will probably fall out at you. Ten uninvited people could show up at my door right now and I could feed them all dinner and dessert. There are kids who only get 1 meal a day at school and from what I hear, that's turning into an iffy subject. My version of being hungry is my stomach growling at 10am even though I just had a bagel at 8am. My $50 a week grocery bill is a luxury.
12. Grandma! If you see any of my posts on FB, you know the woman has flipped a switch and has driven me crazy from time to time. But, I have a grandma! And she makes up for the fact that I have other grandparents who will tell you I went to IU and not ISU and think I'm still dating a guy I broke up with 2 1/2 yrs ago. She's crazy but she is around and does random things like send me free car wash coupons.
13. Music! Mostly country.. Getting ready in the morning? Pandora.. Need something to listen to at work? Turn on some T. Swift.. In the car? Of course that means it's time for my own concert. My purse, Michael, appreciates his serenades.. A song can bring back any memory. Patsy Cline's Crazy and I think of grandpa every time. Spice Girls and I think of my best friend. Hawthorne Heights and I think of going to Bogarts in high school and a creeper tapping on my window and Brittany telling me to "Run the red light!". All good stuff!
14. Past relationships! They are only a few of them.. 2 mainly.. But when they were each like 2 years, you learn a lot! Some days I wish I would have gone through college without a relationship and other days I'm glad I had them because you learn so much about who you are in a relationship and what not to do and what not to put up with. Be mean to me while you are drunk? See ya! Open my door and tell me I'm pretty? You can stay! ;)
15. Being single! This means I can be thankful for single guys! Nope, I'm not the biggest fan of being single. But, I know so much more about myself after being without a relationship for over 2 yrs. I might not be a completely different person, but 2 years ago I would never go out to a bar alone to meet some friends. Heck I wouldn't drink a beer 3 years ago. I've met a lot of great guys, some complete duds and ones who have shown me it's ok to be myself. So what that I'm a girl and like motocross and cars and still want to be taken out and get to wear a little black dress? It's not that confusing.. It's actually pretty awesome and you're dumb if you think it isn't. :)
16. Peppermint Stick ice cream, Car and Driver and the UC Bearcats! Yes this is more than 1 thing, but they are important things! Dad and I still bicker over who gets the ice cream and when I lived at home I would always steal the Car and Driver since I usually got to the mail first. Ever since I was old enough to know what UC was and that I should like them, you could typically find Dad, Grandpa and I yelling at the TV together. The year K-Mart got injured in the Conference USA Tourney, there may have been tears. The year Huggs got booted out, there were Bob Huggins for president bumper stickers!
17. Cell phones (or any phone)! My connection to the world! When you live 1 1/2 hours from family, how else do you connect with them?! Mom and I talk every day. I usually get to talk to dad and bub sometime in there too. Being on the phone all day with potential clients is my job. Ridiculous how much I need the phone in one day!
18. My Kindle! I use it a ton for being on the internet and listening to music, but I don't think I've ever read so much. Of course I had to read all these ridiculous love stories that will never happen to anyone, but whatever. It's a fantasyland for a day or two. Reading is always good! Even if it is 50 Shades trash that is awesome!
19. Smokey! He was the cutest puppy and now he's mostly a big, lazy bum when I'm home. But he's so pretty! Watching him play with his tennis ball alone is pretty funny stuff and he really likes people, especially the ones with food! His face puts a smile on my face! But that's probably because he never chewed up my couch, my baseboards or dug up my plants! :)
20. Reconnecting with people! Over the last year I have gotten to see and reconnect with more people from college. Living at home, I would have never had that chance. No one picks to get up and move to Manchester. But, Indy.. there are people there! Fun people to spend time with and step outside of your comfort zone with. I'm thankful for Steak n' Shake at 3am and $80 worth of cab rides (which luckily I didn't have to pay for :) ) to come home and go get my car again.
21. Sweatpants/yoga pants! As a single lady, I get the pleasure of coming home to an empty apartment and have no one to look hot for after 5:30pm (unless by some miracle I have a date!.). I'm home for 5 minutes and I already have on my comfy clothes and am probably already turning on Nextflix. Future boyfriend, if you are reading this, I promise to wear yoga pants more than sweatpants. Your welcome...
22. TV! Yep, maybe a little sad but I have my shows and for the hour or so they are on, I get to forget about work or whatever other dumb thing is bothering me. Vampire Diaries, Big Bang Theory, Nashville, Hart of Dixie, Awkward, Teen Mom, The Moto.. Love them all. TV is free and you usually get a laugh or lesson out of it. Maybe tv rots your brain, but a couple good shows and I'm a happy girl!
I am thankful for....
1. My family! They are crazy for sure but we are more functional than most families and a little more dysfunctional than those picture perfect ones. Mom and I talk everyday and dad and I still hang out together when I'm home even if it's just hanging out in the garage while he changes my oil. Bub and I have a surprisingly good relationship. And I think sis and I have actually come a long way. :) I am one lucky girl.
2. Having a job! With this terrible economy, a lot of people have trouble finding jobs. Let alone a job that actually uses their degree. I get to do that and got a little promotion. I may complain about work some days but I know I'm lucky to get up and have one to go to.
3. My education! No matter how much I wish Sallie Mae and all her minions didn't exist, I have a degree. I loved school and always miss the sleeping in until noon :) People who say high school is the best years of your life are crazy and didn't get the opportunity to go to college because that's where it's at!
4. My car! When my old car decided to start falling apart a little at a time, I panicked about how the heck I was going to afford a new one. But thanks to my strategic bill planning and budgeting, I didn't have to settle for the worst thing on the lot. I got an SUV with 4wd! It might be a soccer mom car (or moto mom in training as I like to call it) and not brand new, but I love it. It gets me from A to B and has heat, ac and windows that work. That was quite the upgrade!
5. My friends! I have some amazing friends. Hands down the greatest! When you grow up you realize how important it is to keep the people around who don't cause drama and lift you up instead of bringing you down (unless you need to be brought back to reality). Girls night dinners, midnight Twilight showings or lunch dates, I am surrounded by some pretty awesome women.
6. My apartment! I love it (minus the price some days) but I have my own apartment. No roommate, mom and dad don't pay for it, and I can even afford cable and internet without having to steal it off the neighbors. :) Other than wanting to upgrade the furniture, I like all my decorations and the fact that it feels home-y. Mom and dad's will always be home, but my apartment is my mess, my decorations and has my remote- which I don't have to share.
7. Mine (and my family's) health! Working in personal injury, you see how fast someone's life can change and it's never good. Car accidents, injuries at work and surgery that goes bad are all I see everyday and it makes you grateful that it hasn't happened to you or someone you love. One back injury at work and you hear about someone losing their home since they live paycheck to paycheck and aren't getting a full one while injured. One doctor's mistake and your family is suddenly without you. Being surrounded by that makes you realize how lucky you are.
8. Access to healthcare! Kind of goes along with #7, but if there's ever an issue, dad has amazing insurance which I have used and abused this year since I get kicked off at 26. When I have to sign up for work's plan, it might not be great but it is still offered. I just want to get as healthy as possible before I get kicked off! Hence the annoying allergy testing and shots..
9. Where I live! I love where I decided to move and can't ever see myself moving back to the cornfields. They are nice to visit but there's no way I could deal with a 20 minute drive just to Walmart or 45 minute drive to get to work. No thanks! Fishers is amazing. There is always something going on, great schools, and yes, its a little uppity. I'm not afraid to live here alone and I'm pretty sure I could leave my car unlocked for weeks and no one would steal my Jason Aldean cd out of it. :) Plus it probably helps that a police car parks in the carport right under my stairs..
10. My family's financial well being! Nope, we aren't millionaires.. Not even close. But my parent's have done pretty well for themselves. My brother, sister and I are basically spoiled- and now we are all over 18. Growing up, I've been to Disney World 5 times, was never told no for any school thing I wanted money for and got a car at 16. Now I'm old and Sallie Mae beckons so I'm still spoiled because I don't pay Verizon for my phone or State Farm for my car insurance. When my car needed new rotors, I didn't pay for them. Yes, I'm spoiled for sure. But I know I am lucky that my parents can do this.
11. Never going hungry! My parents house was always full of food. Grandma spends twice the amount on food as I do and she lives alone too. If you open my freezer right now, something unhealthy will probably fall out at you. Ten uninvited people could show up at my door right now and I could feed them all dinner and dessert. There are kids who only get 1 meal a day at school and from what I hear, that's turning into an iffy subject. My version of being hungry is my stomach growling at 10am even though I just had a bagel at 8am. My $50 a week grocery bill is a luxury.
12. Grandma! If you see any of my posts on FB, you know the woman has flipped a switch and has driven me crazy from time to time. But, I have a grandma! And she makes up for the fact that I have other grandparents who will tell you I went to IU and not ISU and think I'm still dating a guy I broke up with 2 1/2 yrs ago. She's crazy but she is around and does random things like send me free car wash coupons.
13. Music! Mostly country.. Getting ready in the morning? Pandora.. Need something to listen to at work? Turn on some T. Swift.. In the car? Of course that means it's time for my own concert. My purse, Michael, appreciates his serenades.. A song can bring back any memory. Patsy Cline's Crazy and I think of grandpa every time. Spice Girls and I think of my best friend. Hawthorne Heights and I think of going to Bogarts in high school and a creeper tapping on my window and Brittany telling me to "Run the red light!". All good stuff!
14. Past relationships! They are only a few of them.. 2 mainly.. But when they were each like 2 years, you learn a lot! Some days I wish I would have gone through college without a relationship and other days I'm glad I had them because you learn so much about who you are in a relationship and what not to do and what not to put up with. Be mean to me while you are drunk? See ya! Open my door and tell me I'm pretty? You can stay! ;)
15. Being single! This means I can be thankful for single guys! Nope, I'm not the biggest fan of being single. But, I know so much more about myself after being without a relationship for over 2 yrs. I might not be a completely different person, but 2 years ago I would never go out to a bar alone to meet some friends. Heck I wouldn't drink a beer 3 years ago. I've met a lot of great guys, some complete duds and ones who have shown me it's ok to be myself. So what that I'm a girl and like motocross and cars and still want to be taken out and get to wear a little black dress? It's not that confusing.. It's actually pretty awesome and you're dumb if you think it isn't. :)
16. Peppermint Stick ice cream, Car and Driver and the UC Bearcats! Yes this is more than 1 thing, but they are important things! Dad and I still bicker over who gets the ice cream and when I lived at home I would always steal the Car and Driver since I usually got to the mail first. Ever since I was old enough to know what UC was and that I should like them, you could typically find Dad, Grandpa and I yelling at the TV together. The year K-Mart got injured in the Conference USA Tourney, there may have been tears. The year Huggs got booted out, there were Bob Huggins for president bumper stickers!
17. Cell phones (or any phone)! My connection to the world! When you live 1 1/2 hours from family, how else do you connect with them?! Mom and I talk every day. I usually get to talk to dad and bub sometime in there too. Being on the phone all day with potential clients is my job. Ridiculous how much I need the phone in one day!
18. My Kindle! I use it a ton for being on the internet and listening to music, but I don't think I've ever read so much. Of course I had to read all these ridiculous love stories that will never happen to anyone, but whatever. It's a fantasyland for a day or two. Reading is always good! Even if it is 50 Shades trash that is awesome!
19. Smokey! He was the cutest puppy and now he's mostly a big, lazy bum when I'm home. But he's so pretty! Watching him play with his tennis ball alone is pretty funny stuff and he really likes people, especially the ones with food! His face puts a smile on my face! But that's probably because he never chewed up my couch, my baseboards or dug up my plants! :)
20. Reconnecting with people! Over the last year I have gotten to see and reconnect with more people from college. Living at home, I would have never had that chance. No one picks to get up and move to Manchester. But, Indy.. there are people there! Fun people to spend time with and step outside of your comfort zone with. I'm thankful for Steak n' Shake at 3am and $80 worth of cab rides (which luckily I didn't have to pay for :) ) to come home and go get my car again.
21. Sweatpants/yoga pants! As a single lady, I get the pleasure of coming home to an empty apartment and have no one to look hot for after 5:30pm (unless by some miracle I have a date!.). I'm home for 5 minutes and I already have on my comfy clothes and am probably already turning on Nextflix. Future boyfriend, if you are reading this, I promise to wear yoga pants more than sweatpants. Your welcome...
22. TV! Yep, maybe a little sad but I have my shows and for the hour or so they are on, I get to forget about work or whatever other dumb thing is bothering me. Vampire Diaries, Big Bang Theory, Nashville, Hart of Dixie, Awkward, Teen Mom, The Moto.. Love them all. TV is free and you usually get a laugh or lesson out of it. Maybe tv rots your brain, but a couple good shows and I'm a happy girl!
Wednesday, October 31, 2012
The Mysterious Spark
Happy Halloween! (A few days late for some of you readers no doubt!)
Clearly I have been slacking on the blog writing but it's hard when there are some things you don't want people to read about as they are happening and life in general happens. Blog writing takes a bit of time (unless you want to make zero sense and have typos galore which I'm sure I still do). Some of the lack of time has come from a little promotion at work! It's exciting and I like what I'm doing much more than what I had been doing before. It also comes with a little working late which is good and bad. I have the time to do it but do I really want to be at work? Ehhh.. But when you like what you are doing, it's less terrible than it sounds! Not hating your job is half the battle!
Reading has really been slacking. Since it's getting cold though and all I want to do is hibernate with my sweat pants and a blanket, I'm sure I will be reading again soon. I can however tell you that Netflix might be the best $8 I spend a month. They might not have the most up to date stuff but the app is on my kindle, I can watch it through the wii at my apartment and my brother watches it at home on his Xbox. Pretty much a success. I already loved Vampire Diaries and Hart of Dixie (which I watched every episode of before the new seasons started this month), but my new love is Friday Night Lights. How did I not watch it when it was actually on? I couldn't sit down and watch 1 or 2 episodes at a time. I had to watch like 4 or spend a whole Saturday on the couch watching like a whole season. Addiction. Watch it if you haven't. Ladies, I have a new found respect for football pants and any scene shot in a weight room.
Ok, back to the whole reason I started this blog... being a single girl. Seriously sometimes I feel like such a b*tch. Everyone can tell you not to feel that way, but it happens and here is why: I really don't think it's possible for a guy and girl to be friends. I think if I ever saw a relationship where a guy and girl were just friends and no one EVER had feelings for the other, it would be like seeing a unicorn and then when you took a picture of that unicorn to show to your family and friends, it would be like a ghost and not show up in the photo. Feelings complicate everything. Especially when you don't have the same ones. You're going along having a good time and bam! Pump the breaks! Stuff gets strange and there are awkward conversations that have to happen and you want to die. Well maybe not die, but hide under a rock at least. Why is it such a terrible feeling to not have the same feelings as someone else?! It's not like anyone did anything wrong to have or not have the same feelings, yet it totally feels like it. Frustration. And at some point this should be easy to stop but it's like a train wreck. You can't look away and you can't stop it. Warning signs ladies: hugs that last a little too long, excessive touching (arm, leg, lower back), and him actually texting you first. If you aren't interested, nix it or be honest about your feelings before it goes on too long and you feel like a jerk and a half!
Now, how you know you don't have that feeling... You can try and convince yourself it could maybe work out and he is super nice and everything you should want to date, but if that feeling isn't there, it's not going to be there. This is something I apparently have a hard time remembering. And that is a very important point! What you should want and what you really want are usually 2 totally different things. The terrible thing is once you've felt the "spark" it's hard to convince yourself that it exists when it doesn't. Everyone says once you've met someone "You will know". And I really believe that. I think you have that feeling with every important relationship you will have. That person may not end up being "the one" but they sure do end up being important. With every serious relationship I've had (and I know there are only a couple of them), I was so excited to see him. Butterflies, that electric feeling when you sit next to them, and instantly being attracted to them. None of those things have happened in a long time.. I'm talking YEARS. That's an issue. Countless dates, a few month long "hang outs" here and there and nada. How many people can you really have that kind of connection with?! Is there some kind of general rule where it only comes along every so many years?! I know there is some grand plan I know nothing about and everything happens when it is supposed to. But I want the spark back! :)
P.S. Spark makes me think of T. Swift (Sparks Fly). Her new cd is A.M.A.Z.I.N.G. So is Jason Aldean's for that matter. Go get them both!
Clearly I have been slacking on the blog writing but it's hard when there are some things you don't want people to read about as they are happening and life in general happens. Blog writing takes a bit of time (unless you want to make zero sense and have typos galore which I'm sure I still do). Some of the lack of time has come from a little promotion at work! It's exciting and I like what I'm doing much more than what I had been doing before. It also comes with a little working late which is good and bad. I have the time to do it but do I really want to be at work? Ehhh.. But when you like what you are doing, it's less terrible than it sounds! Not hating your job is half the battle!
Reading has really been slacking. Since it's getting cold though and all I want to do is hibernate with my sweat pants and a blanket, I'm sure I will be reading again soon. I can however tell you that Netflix might be the best $8 I spend a month. They might not have the most up to date stuff but the app is on my kindle, I can watch it through the wii at my apartment and my brother watches it at home on his Xbox. Pretty much a success. I already loved Vampire Diaries and Hart of Dixie (which I watched every episode of before the new seasons started this month), but my new love is Friday Night Lights. How did I not watch it when it was actually on? I couldn't sit down and watch 1 or 2 episodes at a time. I had to watch like 4 or spend a whole Saturday on the couch watching like a whole season. Addiction. Watch it if you haven't. Ladies, I have a new found respect for football pants and any scene shot in a weight room.
Ok, back to the whole reason I started this blog... being a single girl. Seriously sometimes I feel like such a b*tch. Everyone can tell you not to feel that way, but it happens and here is why: I really don't think it's possible for a guy and girl to be friends. I think if I ever saw a relationship where a guy and girl were just friends and no one EVER had feelings for the other, it would be like seeing a unicorn and then when you took a picture of that unicorn to show to your family and friends, it would be like a ghost and not show up in the photo. Feelings complicate everything. Especially when you don't have the same ones. You're going along having a good time and bam! Pump the breaks! Stuff gets strange and there are awkward conversations that have to happen and you want to die. Well maybe not die, but hide under a rock at least. Why is it such a terrible feeling to not have the same feelings as someone else?! It's not like anyone did anything wrong to have or not have the same feelings, yet it totally feels like it. Frustration. And at some point this should be easy to stop but it's like a train wreck. You can't look away and you can't stop it. Warning signs ladies: hugs that last a little too long, excessive touching (arm, leg, lower back), and him actually texting you first. If you aren't interested, nix it or be honest about your feelings before it goes on too long and you feel like a jerk and a half!
Now, how you know you don't have that feeling... You can try and convince yourself it could maybe work out and he is super nice and everything you should want to date, but if that feeling isn't there, it's not going to be there. This is something I apparently have a hard time remembering. And that is a very important point! What you should want and what you really want are usually 2 totally different things. The terrible thing is once you've felt the "spark" it's hard to convince yourself that it exists when it doesn't. Everyone says once you've met someone "You will know". And I really believe that. I think you have that feeling with every important relationship you will have. That person may not end up being "the one" but they sure do end up being important. With every serious relationship I've had (and I know there are only a couple of them), I was so excited to see him. Butterflies, that electric feeling when you sit next to them, and instantly being attracted to them. None of those things have happened in a long time.. I'm talking YEARS. That's an issue. Countless dates, a few month long "hang outs" here and there and nada. How many people can you really have that kind of connection with?! Is there some kind of general rule where it only comes along every so many years?! I know there is some grand plan I know nothing about and everything happens when it is supposed to. But I want the spark back! :)
P.S. Spark makes me think of T. Swift (Sparks Fly). Her new cd is A.M.A.Z.I.N.G. So is Jason Aldean's for that matter. Go get them both!
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